Black Tounge

Today's weather was absolutely gorgeous, every time there is lovely weather like this i feel blessed to bare wittiness to such a glorious sight. i wish this weather was permanent it makes me feel so much happier and optimistic. I'm so excited for so much coming up stuff. I'm going to have the two Best dates to social, Kristian my man and Meghan my wifey =]. and if I'm going to Meghan's formal Ive decided I'm going in a tux and say "clearly, i wear the pants in the relationship....Meghan's the belt" I'm a funny one yes yes i know *flicks hair*

I'm also happy because i finally have a new book to read, i read almost every night and when i had every book i own and some even 3 times over i was getting upset, but then Stephie.d lent me "The Duchess" and I'm loving it. a biography on the Duchess Georgina in the 1700's its rather fascinating and i realised I'm in desperate need to go book shopping ( I'm currently DYING to grab Kurt Cobain Unseen) and yes to some reading this blog you must be thinking......Zara Hawthorne...................reads? yes behind my consent stupidity, clumsiness and mind in the gutter humour i actually truly enjoy literature.

I wish sometimes i lived in the future and it took about two seconds to get to peoples houses. i wish i could do that because there is a friend of mine that could really use a massive hug right about now. i hate it when my friends are depressed and i feel like i cant do anything about it.

I'm looking forward to Saturday though, last time I'm going to see him before i go off to the airport with him on Tuesday, five more days, i wonder how ill cope. I'm going to miss him so much. I'm writing him a letter to read on the plane though :) i hope he likes it.

I'm also currently addicted to the song "Red Wine Lips" by Lisa Mitchell. I love her album Wonder, i highly recommend it.

Dearest Roxanne =]

My dear English friend wrote me a beautiful sonnet in her blog that made me smile so much. she is such a lovely girl with a beautiful face and soul and brains to go with it all. your an amazing girl and i hope your my friend for many many long years to come <3

Move Along

Pretty sure I'm the most awesomest best friend ever. I'm so pumped for Soundwave best line up EVER. then when my Meghan said "i can't go i have to pay for schoolies and stuff" i was like OH NO YOU DON'T, and since her 18Th birthday is around the same time i decided to buy her a ticket for her birthday, tis going to be an awesome day, pretty sure the highlights will be

Paramore

Escape the Fate

Alexisonfire

My Chemical Romance

Taking Back Sunday

AFI

HIM

All Time Low

The Devil Wears Prada

Comeback Kid

Oh my god I'm so pumped it's insane .....AND Ive also got tickets for AC DC. Love Casey My babeh for that one <3

Also my Love for Tyson Ritter has grown even stronger since seeing him perform on Rove last night SHIRTLESS, covered in glitter and in peach skinny leg jeans, can you say hot-to-trot!?

and when he started licking the strings of the guitar i instantly said "I WANT TO BE THAT GUITAR!" Ah love life :)

Karma Police

"Ive given all i can but its not enough"

i never want this weather to end. i went to harbored beach yesterday with miss Chloe and just layed on the sand in the sun watching the waves while we catted for hours, was so nice. then fish and chips at Dee Why kudos to her bro for the lift there and shouting us :) and Chloe's stack at bowling was freaking awesome ahaha.and pretty sure Simon's auntie Cathy is awesome, she likes British India, WOO ahahha. and Breadon, i don't jump the gun i just....have high expectations that get crushed :D haha


oh and the shit that goes on behind closed doors, the stuff i hear about people i know these days is crazy. i witness so many mistakes by many friends of mine. it makes me think maybe what I'm doing is a big mistake, or maybe that's just me being silly again......

but you seemed so distant last night and this morning. i felt a hint of boredom or just not caring. it cut me.

Apple Of The Eye

Ah what a weekend. finally, nice beautiful summer weather, everything today was just gorgeous thanks to the sun. i spent all day in the sun, having a picnic, tennis and swim with my family and cousins. last night i went to something with numbers with Meghan, Brandon, Breadon, Jose, Emma and Pippa and it was pretty ace, even though Jose and breadon got kicked out :( breadons drunken dancing made me lol hehe =] and Friday night i stayed over at the bf;s, and Chloe came over for a bit (Y). i had a good night with him like i always do.

such a nice weekend, and something with numbers are awesome live.

Beautiful....

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory

i hate those low self esteem days

Bohemian Like You

You know those days when everything is just right, its a nice day outside, you find the perfect outfit for the party for later that night and your I-tunes seems to be reading your mind and playing exactly what you want it to? today is one of those days, i Love it when my I-tunes reads my mind :). for tonight i have teamed a blue and black tie die bubble dress, stockings and converse, it looks epicly cool (oh and my black beanie of course). Ive only been awake for an hour and a half and i feel so bubbly and happy, its really random =]. i want more chucks, i think for Christmas and my birthday I'm going to request nothing but new converse. i want the Kurt Cobain ones i found on google *drool*

"I'll Never Let This Go....

......but i cant find the words to tell you" i wont, i really don't want to. I loved last night, a nice relaxing night to end the stressful week Ive had. everything you said and did last night was pretty much everything i wanted to hear and wanted you to do. although i am quite sick today thinking about last night has been keeping my mood up all day. when i got home from school today i watched a whole season of sex and the city, and while i was i wonderd, do all our relationships have to be so.........................complicated? sure relationships all have their ups and downs but watching all the dramas in the show this afternoon made me realise how actually uncomplicated mine is, even though hes going away its still pretty smooth sailing witch is pretty good. i just wish relationships with everyone could just be smooth, its our last few years of school for crying out loud...why cant people just swallow their words and be nice to everyone.

I miss the old days....

.....But i also love the new ones

Map Of The Problematique

Again, you acted immature and spoke to me like i was a fucking 5 year old. i cannot believe you flipped out over that, i did nothing wrong, i don't know why i spill tears over you. As much as i hate not talking to you and being mad at you i have to as much as it kills me inside. i think Ive started to like you a whole lot more then Ive been able to realise, i notice it most when we fight.

life is never what you expect it to be, it continuously throws surprises at you and they throw you off course. i wish i knew what life is going to throw at me next to further complicate my already very twisted and complex life, yes people its a lot fucked up then i let on , you have no idea.

i was also reading a friends blog and in it, it said "i wish i could say i am a normal teenager but I'm not", well i don't think there is such thing as a normal teenager anymore, what is normal these days? if its out there i don't think I'm familiar with it, because me and my close friends we are anything but ordinary, so don't worry dear not many of us would not be familiar with that term "normality" anymore