that's exactly what braces are. day three with them on. last night i feel asleep at 12. then at 2am i woke up from pain from my braces, i had a drink some panadol then tried to go back to sleep. but after hours of tossing and turning i knew it wasn't going to happen. before i knew it , it was 6 am. so i just stayed up and when everyone woke up i watched a movie with my cousins and drifted of for a bit in that. I've had about 10 panadols today and its done nothing. i can barley open my mouth is that swollen. i cant drink i cant eat i cant talk. this sucks so much.
who ever invented braces is an absolute arse. who wants to hunt this person down with me?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Ignorance
Worst day in a real long time.
im exhausted. didn't fall asleep until 5am last night.
im frustrated. our first fight, and you were SO immature about it and kept trying to change topic.
im worried/ anxious. im getting my braces on today to, FML
im furious. im still in a cloud of anger, fustration and confusion
the only good thing that's happened today is that i downloaded paramores new single Ignorance. i like it muchly.
Naive
i have been dreading the day my 11 year old sister came asking me detailed questions about all he birds and the bees and today my friends it happened, and quite frankly i found it the funniest thing ever.
she comes in my room with this massive book titled "girl stuff" its basically a big fat book that has sections on bullying, peer pressure, inner beauty all that jazz. there is all so a sex section wicth she decided not to read until tonight. she comes into my room and goes "zaza, how do you say that word?" *points to masturbation* i look and go HAHAHAHAHAHA and shes goes ":( whats so funny!" i look at her and go ahaha it says masturbation *still giggling* and shes like........"what does that mean?" I'm like HAHA I'M NOT ANSWERING THAT! JUST READ IT HAHAH!
i don't know why i found it so funny but just seeing my little sister ask that in such an innocent voice was pure gold.
after she walked out she came back in going..."zara...whats a clit?"
and i BURST out into laughter again and she repeated herself i said AHHAHA ASK YOUR MOTHER! and shes like arg fine!
so i heard her go out ask mum and i was still laughing, then my mum walked in and gave me a death stare for being so immature. ahahaha I'm sorry but it was too funny. besides i didint want to be blamed for stealing her innocence :).
anyway on another topic i would jsut like to say...
maybe he was right. maybe you are lazy. you put in som effort and make a treck for once. because im doing doing it for you every week.....
oh and did i mention my sister all so asked what lub was :)
she comes in my room with this massive book titled "girl stuff" its basically a big fat book that has sections on bullying, peer pressure, inner beauty all that jazz. there is all so a sex section wicth she decided not to read until tonight. she comes into my room and goes "zaza, how do you say that word?" *points to masturbation* i look and go HAHAHAHAHAHA and shes goes ":( whats so funny!" i look at her and go ahaha it says masturbation *still giggling* and shes like........"what does that mean?" I'm like HAHA I'M NOT ANSWERING THAT! JUST READ IT HAHAH!
i don't know why i found it so funny but just seeing my little sister ask that in such an innocent voice was pure gold.
after she walked out she came back in going..."zara...whats a clit?"
and i BURST out into laughter again and she repeated herself i said AHHAHA ASK YOUR MOTHER! and shes like arg fine!
so i heard her go out ask mum and i was still laughing, then my mum walked in and gave me a death stare for being so immature. ahahaha I'm sorry but it was too funny. besides i didint want to be blamed for stealing her innocence :).
anyway on another topic i would jsut like to say...
maybe he was right. maybe you are lazy. you put in som effort and make a treck for once. because im doing doing it for you every week.....
oh and did i mention my sister all so asked what lub was :)
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Something in the way
Today while walking around milsons point i kept thinking, "wow i wish i had her hair", "damn i wish i had her body" or "wow her eyes are beautiful...i envy her". it was really weird. i usually dont think like that. im often a lot more confident then this....was a strange feeling and a bit of a weird day overall. ah well i have a good weekend planned nows. i get to see the bf whoo. oh but Tuesday night with the wife (Meghan) was awesome. specially weirding the fuck out of Brandon ahaha :)
oh and that nirvana docco me and Meghan watched was pretty cool to (Y)
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Random Bus Chat
I had quite an interesting conversation with a really nice guy on the bus on the way home from the city today. At just 15 years old the poor guy had been through and is still going through it seemed. It made me open up my eyes a bit. that my previous actions and emotions and situations ive been in haven't been all too terrible. They went good situations i guess but i forgot that someone is all ways worse off. he was a really nice guy....i felt sorry for him. really did. I hope tonight he doesn't do what he told me he was going to do. I all so hope i get a call back, and im trying to remember where ive meet him from before but i just cant.hmmmm
anyway my weekend plans have fizzled. grounded yay love life =.=
oh well. im exhausted anyway. i would've died halfway through the weekend. thank fuck its the holidays tomorrow.
oh and im glad that a certain someone is int mad about Saturday's...events anymore =]
anyway my weekend plans have fizzled. grounded yay love life =.=
oh well. im exhausted anyway. i would've died halfway through the weekend. thank fuck its the holidays tomorrow.
oh and im glad that a certain someone is int mad about Saturday's...events anymore =]
Monday, June 29, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
R.I.P
I still cant believe it, but one of my heroes is dead. that's right, Micheal Jackson. at only 50. i cant believe this, he used to sleep in a special tank that was usually just used to help recovering burn victims, but he slept in one because he wanted to keep his body healthy and once said "If i treat my body right, hopefully ill live to at least 150" yet his life was cut short and died 100 years ahead of his desired age. He was an absolute legend. Sure he was anything but normal with all his scandals but most geniuses are corrupt ant they?
Call him wacko jacko if you wish. his career was ruined by people like you who accused him of being gay and having a weird obsession with children. do you know why he seemed to have a weird obsession with kids? no? well Micheal's dad was an abusive and dominating Man. Micheal had no childhood at would work more hours then most adults did from the age of 5. that's right 5. He said in one of his very few interviews that his childhood was taken from him completely, when he was in rehearsal rooms and saw lughing kids playing at in the park he would cry and cry. he only had his fellow Jackson 5 brothers and two other sisters and they all only had each other. he was an isolated child. Having his first hit at just age 11 he was under stress and the spotlight basically his whole life.
from an early age it was obvious Micheal was the most talented out of the bunch and his father saw this and would abuse him, whip him with belts before he went on stage, teased him about the shape of his nose (hence the many nose jobs) and mistakes during rehearsals were NOT allowed even at his ripe age. he was abused isolated and alone. sure he was a music sensation but at what price? He had no Christmases or Birthdays as a child. just work work work
this explains his strange obsession with kids. He loved his children and showered them with love and gifts, he wants them and others to have a happy childhood he never had. sure the whole molesting charges and the dangling his child over the balcony were not the smartest hings to do but really, how would he know how to treat a child properly when he was never treated right? child abuse is an on going cycle, when you corrupt one person that person continues to corrupt an other.
despite all this he has said that all of his dreams have pretty much come true and is the man behind the most bought record of all time, his album "Thriller". And on the way picked up about 13 Grammies (8 were for Thriller) and was and forever will be the King Of Pop.
He was an amazing entertainer, a fantastic dancer, a dreamer, a genius and his music will always and forever be loved and remembered
Rest In Peace M.J, you will not be forgotten. <3
Call him wacko jacko if you wish. his career was ruined by people like you who accused him of being gay and having a weird obsession with children. do you know why he seemed to have a weird obsession with kids? no? well Micheal's dad was an abusive and dominating Man. Micheal had no childhood at would work more hours then most adults did from the age of 5. that's right 5. He said in one of his very few interviews that his childhood was taken from him completely, when he was in rehearsal rooms and saw lughing kids playing at in the park he would cry and cry. he only had his fellow Jackson 5 brothers and two other sisters and they all only had each other. he was an isolated child. Having his first hit at just age 11 he was under stress and the spotlight basically his whole life.
from an early age it was obvious Micheal was the most talented out of the bunch and his father saw this and would abuse him, whip him with belts before he went on stage, teased him about the shape of his nose (hence the many nose jobs) and mistakes during rehearsals were NOT allowed even at his ripe age. he was abused isolated and alone. sure he was a music sensation but at what price? He had no Christmases or Birthdays as a child. just work work work
this explains his strange obsession with kids. He loved his children and showered them with love and gifts, he wants them and others to have a happy childhood he never had. sure the whole molesting charges and the dangling his child over the balcony were not the smartest hings to do but really, how would he know how to treat a child properly when he was never treated right? child abuse is an on going cycle, when you corrupt one person that person continues to corrupt an other.
despite all this he has said that all of his dreams have pretty much come true and is the man behind the most bought record of all time, his album "Thriller". And on the way picked up about 13 Grammies (8 were for Thriller) and was and forever will be the King Of Pop.
He was an amazing entertainer, a fantastic dancer, a dreamer, a genius and his music will always and forever be loved and remembered
Rest In Peace M.J, you will not be forgotten. <3
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