Really, you slit your wrist over this guy? And when you told him he didint even belive you? you say you do this in the name of love, love- what the fuck is it even. i dont think ive ever been in love...not really. I have really really really genuinely liked and care for a person but i dont think we can really say love at this age unless its serious, like real serious. I think the word love has just been thrown around to much and we want to be like we see on the silver screens, so we convince ourselves that we are in love. then we look back and go, wtf that wasint love. i dont belive i have said the word love more then i just have in this paragraph either. Then theres the whole thing when the other person says it, and you dont feel it just yet and its like you have to say it. I hate that.
and thank god i have alex to discus this stuff with. pretty sure shes the only other person in the human race that as bad as me when it comes to this stuff and actually understands. someone else who is as shallow as i am and who also has the balls to admit it.
The conversations you have at the late times at night are always the best The thought that goes into these would have to be better than the ones during the day. Especially when their with alex.Msn conversation - alex+zara
Alex
i know
and then you feel worse by the end
cuase all these people know
but really
you didnt get what you wanted
you didnt get the proper reassurance
you got a bunch of people
going hmmm
and hmm isnt going to make anything different
Me
a-fucking-men
peopel ont understand why us two are such good freinds, this is why. understanding. You can get along with a person soo much and have a shitload in commen wth them but if you dont understand each other, theres nothing there.
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