Shame and Fortune

Parents ruin everything don't they, ruin your plans by not letting you go anywhere and then they make you want to scream when they use the century old excuses like "you'll understand when you have kids". Pretty sure when i have kids ill let them go and see their own boyfriends. mother chuckers.

anyway on a brighter note, Tina's party last night was pretty kick arse, although my feet are killing me from all the dancing in the killer heels, it was so worth it :)
and I'm so glad she played "Not Fair" by Lilly Alen, i had that song stuck in my head alll day yesterday, and got it stuck in everyone elses head, then when it got played everyone was like NO we just got it out of our heads, then i just bounced around singing all the words to everyone, please don't hate me guys, you know it's a totally kick arse song :D

Oh and something else, i wish i didint chicken out of things, ive been taken over by a fear. (stole the part from Lilly Alen =)

Addicted

Epic weekend indeed. Although there was massive lack of sleep that doesn't realy bother me. multiple good things happened over the time period from Friday to the early hours of Monday morning but there was one particular stand out that has been making me smile quite a bit today :) ......yes that's right something else other then that weird man in the religion video going "and then the disciple's said can we COME, then Jesus said no, but i will COME again. lol lol lol ( if you don't get it put your mind in the gutter like i do )

But i realised theres a few people i havint seen in a while and really miss, i wish keeping in contact with everyone was easier!

tra la la =]

Kansas City

I wish you would do something about it.........

that is all.

i think Santigold is epic (Y)

where did you sleep last night

i got told something last night that surprised me quite a bit....i think the feelings neutral... im not 100% sure at the moment though, im a bit confused and shocked. it gave me a bit to think about too. i told two people that gave me two completely different responses and one of then shocked me too. i swear im going to like die from shock one day (especially after that little stunt troy pulled on me today , tisk tisk). Thank god for the weekend though aye? ive got a good one lined up (as usual) and im extra happy because the awesome last period art lesson i had, the laughing fits me and Vicky had this afternoon and ive got the latest RUSSH magazine (Y). love life.







oh and that feeling i told you all about in "litle shadow" is gone. i think last night did that.

Rewind?

Once again i let my hormones get the better of me. I dont know how badly i hurt one of my good friends last night. We talked and everything, she said she was fine but there was something telling me that she wasint, and after speaking to a source, i know that she isint. I mean, it was just harmless fun....i think. i dont know whats going to happen between me and the person that i hurt and between the person i did the hurting with. fuck me dead im stupid. Its true what people say, i must be a whore. ive hurt so many people by doing stuff like this.

New Sensation

It's been a good start to the weekend. Last night had a good vibe, was int too crazy but wasint to boring either witch was good considering i was quite tired. Meghan and i had a Sex and the City marathon today witch was epic. Love that show it's hilarious. But of course there was a complication that sort of ruined my night, i wish it would just be stored out otherwise tonight is going to be awkward. I wish people would stop screwing with me. i just want things to settle down for once.

And as you can probably see i gave my blog a bit of a makeover, i felt it needed a lil sumthin sumthin =]

Litte Shadow

This past week ive been feeling a little blank. Only when im surround by people and environments i truly love have i felt sane. Like yesterday lunch when almost everyone in my group as finally at school we where all in a big group, the weather was finally nice, me Kristy and Courtney where lying down staring up at the sky and it was such a funny lunch time i was laughing so much. and also last night when i was dancing with Laura i felt so comfortable as soon as i hit the stage and the music took over and all my thoughts drifted away. I dont know why but it feels like theres something thats missing in my life. i have no idea what it is and why i feel this way when life is pretty good at the moment. Its been frustrating me all week. I feel incomplete and i have no idea why. It hits me most when im alone. I never used to resent being alone i used to enjoy my alone time but now i dont know why it bothers me.....

U.S.A

The two weeks i spent in L.A, California and Hawaii were sooo epic! On the first day all we wanted to do was get to our hotel and sleep! we were all so tired after the pretty much sleepless 14 hour flight. some of our baggage got lost with our dancing costumes and i flipped but it was eventually found. on that first night we went out for a quick dinner but we were all soo tired so as soon as we got back we hit our beds instantly.

The next day was an early start. we got up and got ready for our first day of performing at Disneyland! We went to the character breakfast they had the best food there, there was Micky mouse shaped waffles and everything! (even peanut butter and jelly pizza :S) then we were taken to toon town for our first performance. it went really well and we got a pretty big audience. during our time in L.A we did another performance in Disneyland, danced in universal studios and spent the day there, went to Hollywood for a day saw all the land marks there and got dance lessons at a dance school called the EDGE were the older Seniors got lesson from a so you think you can dance choreographer! (who said i had great bounce, hip action and attack with my dancing =]) and we also danced in the Disneyland parade. Our dance school was second best out of about 20 other Australian and American dance schools, and we only came second to a really professional selective dance troop(yyay=]). the parade was soo much fun and there was so many people watching, it was insane!

On the last night we all went to a farewell dinner at a really cool cafe in downtown Disney. That last night mum said all the dancer could go to Amy and Trina's room for a few drinks and shiz for our last night.So the older girls bought us vodka and we all went up to their hotel room and partied with everyone and some random Americans that they had met to (one of the guys was Taylor Swifts ex!)

Then after that we jetted off to Waikiki - Hawaii. Our hotel was beautiful and it was right on the beach. The shopping there was awesome and the Loua( Hawaii Party) on the last night was so much fun (specially when Ryan had to go up on stage and Hula for everyone there hahah)

There where so many good times everyday and everyone got along so well it was so good. And the amount of times i almost cried with laughter was insane. MY dancing girls are such a funny bunch :). i Spent about $1000 over there too. my wardrobe is so full!

It was probably the best trip I've ever been on so far even though we had to be up early for dancing and all that it didint matter. Now i cant wait for the Euro Disney trip in 2011.