My Happy Ending

Party was fabulous, lots of shopping was done and a splendid two week holiday was well spent. Life is good. im so glad i found you.

Recently told someone for the first time my real feelings about the other person who was a big part of my life a while back. we ended without a propper ending ."You where all the things i thought i knew, and i thought we could be...it's nice to know that you were there, thanks for acting like you care and making me feel like i was the only one, it's nice to know we had it all, thanks for watching as i fall and letting me know we where done....so much for my happy ending"but none of that matters now  I have someone who treats me so well. Thank you meghan for thursdays vent. your the best freind anyone could have and i love our minghag days even when we just chill and do practicly nothing. if you and i ever had a fight and stoped talking i dont know what i would do.

life is good, ive stoped taking things for granted, i dont know how i was ever so stupid to be suicidal in the past. Ive learnt to appriciate and find love and happiness in the smallest of things, im finaly at peace although life is is a never ending roller coaster of ups and downs and everything changes all the time, ive found myself and i have a few amazing people to thank for that, i hope they know who they all are

Killing Loneliness

So happy. Evrything is slowly but surely falling into place. Im so excited for satturday my 17th party, i hope everything goes well. only thing that is worrying me at the moment is money and how i kinda really need a propper job, but ill worry about that after HSC i guess :). one person in particular is continuously making me smile. he know who he is.  

 "I wanna wake up where you are, I won't say anything at all ,So why don't you slide "

"He says everything I need to hear

And it’s like I couldn’t ask for anything better.

He opens up my door and
I get into his car and he says
you look beautiful tonight.
And I feel perfectly fine"      These are jsut some lyrics that describe how i feel about you. you drive me crazy and ive never felt this way about someone before, especily not this fast but im deffiantly not complaining :)

Nom Nom Nom

I want a million of these, that is all

Sun Hit's The Sky

First week of exams is OVER. i couldive done better but i guess i needed this to show that i need to be even more orginised. which i plan to be, i just need this break thats comming up. Im also very excited for schoolies. A whole week away from home, all the worries and stresses about going into the "real" world can be left behind. A whole week with some of my most loved freinds, in a beach house, beahcing it and shopping all day then partying all night. it's going to be so epic. Just to get away from it all. Have a week with no rules, no one calling you at 3am saying "were are you im worried sick get home!" It's almost April again which means busy time for me indeed, Dad's birthday is on the 31st of March, mine is on the 2nd of April, Zians on the 6th and my Nan's is on the 9th! not to mention easter inbetween all of that. My birthday happens to be the first day of holidays this year and thursday night im going to have some close friends over then they will be there for my actual birthday. My 17th party is on the tenth, meghan and I are going costume shopping on sunday :) We hope to find Sailor Scout outfits somewhere if not ebay will be or last resort.

Ive been known for having a massive and rather out there shoe collection, most of them being high heels but i have grown a bigger love for sneakers. There are two pairs in particular that i am dying to own. Tiger print converse and gold winged adidas ones. Let's hope the birthday money is in large amounts :P. Hm what else...I havint taken many photos in a while. I plan on putting my camera into good use these holidays, take snaps of everything.....OH! Josh Thomas has released a comedy album and i saw add's for all new supernatural eppisodes alst night, i think it's easy to say i am one happy chap.I also am hoping to muster up enough money to go to vampire weekend <3

Big Jet Plane by Angus & Julia Stone = New favourite song and Supergrass the band are wicked. thats about it. K thanks bye

Chase that feeling

hello blog, how I've neglected you lately, I'm sorry. Ive actually been focusing on school as much as possible. I'm having the best day.I'm so happy for some reason. everything is just good again. Footy season again :) tigers won their first game yay! going to the roosters vs tigers game this weekend with Jacqui, Nate and dragging Jono and others along :). Ruth's paint party was so much fun, we all had a paint fight, slippy slides and pretended we were five again. it was so cool and we listened to nothing but vampire weekend, mika and ACDC, life doesn't get much better :)

Also am planning a small shingdig at mine this weekend, a good way to chill before exams start. I'm also very excited for my 17th. i started handing out invites today yay. i hope my happy mood continues for quiet some time :)

As much as i ever could

we all want to mean something. we all want to be remembered for something. we all want to be known, to be loved. by many or even just a few. were all trying to be all we can be. these are stressful times, i promised i wouldn't let the stress get to me but it's seeping through. slowly spreading through me. i hope i can make it through to hsc. its going so quick yet so slow at the same time. this is madness. lets see what happens..............

Feels like.. the music sounds better with you...

Been going to fair few concerts lately and have recently started practicing with a friend for my music performance and it's kind of brought me back. for a while i forgot what music meant to me. Music makes the world go around. it gets you through the bad times and makes the good times even better. It helps you express who you are. Ive been writing a lot of songs lately, and even if i never really make it i hope to be making music when i leave school, even if it's just a hobby on the side.

And I wonder
When i sing along with you
If everything could ever feel this real forever
If anything could ever be this good again

i can't stop thinking about you, and i know you cant stop doing the same. just knowing that much makes me happy and that's all i need right now......